How Did I Stop Wishing My Life Away at Eighteen? How You Can To.

When I was fifteen-years-old and a sophomore in high school, I had a small group of friends that I hung out with every day. Though I was content, I wasn’t entirely happy with just having a small group of friends. At that point and time, my older friends had moved on and graduated and started college and job training while I was still in high school. Though I was involved in yearbook, journalism, my church youth group, had my small group of friends, and so forth, something was missing in my life. I couldn’t accurately pinpoint it out, but I knew I was hiding under a mask.

One day I was driving home from school, and I was reflecting on my day and my homework assignments, then I said to myself, “I wish I was eighteen. My life would be so much better.” I got home, and I said hello to my grandmother, and I went to my room and placed my book bag down, and purse and I just screamed as loud as I could and said, “God, why can’t I just be popular and have what everybody else has?” My scream echoed all around my life and I got on the floor and sobbed.

From that day forth, I wished my life away for three years. I repeatedly told myself that your life will be so much better at 18, 21, and 25 because you will be more independent, have numerous amounts of friends, have a good job, a man to love you, and a place of your own where you can be the boss and make your own rules. Sooner or later, that negative seed that I planted into my head grew little by little.

The turning point of my life was when I was eighteen-years-old, and I realized how much I took high school for granted, my small group of friends for granted, the things I was involved in for granted, and my older friends for granted. The negative seed I planted resulted in me taking prom for granted, going after jobs that I wanted in high school, my small group of friends turning their back on me, a toxic friendship, and much more. That’s when I started to practice gratitude.

The five ways I stopped wishing my life away were for thirty days I made one thing I was grateful for and posted it on my bedroom mirror. The second thing was I picked up a new hobby of photography. The third thing was got involved with an organization to make new friends. The fourth thing was I smiled in the mirror. The fifth thing was I danced around my room and sang 90’s pop songs from the Backstreet Boys and NSYNC and Christina Aguilera to let out my inner child that I had forgotten. In practicing these five things, I gained a new perspective on life and I learned to be grateful. I made up my mind to try photography to capture moments of people, places, and things to appreciate the things that surround me every day. Joining an organization helped me to broaden my horizons and learn about new cultures and meet new people to make new connections. Smiling in the mirror, it helped me to feel happy. By dancing and singing to my childhood music, I felt like a little kid all over again singing karaoke with my friends from elementary school while we dressed up in my mother’s clothes and used hairbrushes as microphones to sing.

I hope you put my five things to practice boys and girls if you are struggling with staying optimistic and positive about high school. Please let me know if my five things helped you to stop wishing your life away. Remember that life is a gift, and it should be cherished. Please don’t wish your lives away, boys and girls.

At the bottom I have posted my own photography I took in college and beyond!

Love you all,

Allistar Banks

McCormick, SC Cotton Gin 2012
Troy, SC Baptist Church 2012
Indian Massacre 2012
Indian Massacre Tombstone McCormick, SC 2012
My Mom! 2012
My Grandma! 2012
My dog Bailey! 2012
My friend Jade with her cowboy boots! 2012
My brother Lars’ birthday.
Our family friend Mike Allen and my mom!
My friend Emily!
My dog Bailey top picture. My dog Gracie bottom picture.
My dog Beth top picture. My mom holding Gracie’s babies bottom picture.

Published by Allistar Banks-Author

Allistar Banks is a multi-genre author of several books ranging from children to young adult fiction. A Professional Pet Sitter by day, novelist by night, she received her Bachelor of Science degree in Mass Communications from Lander University. A McCormick, SC native, she is a lover of southern cuisine, the mountains, local art, and history.

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